A feedback after 2 months of Zvezda Practice:
I should probably start my story with the moment when I decided to seriously start the Search without playing with this idea, when I decided to start listening to myself, to my guts, to my deep inner world. About three years ago I had a car accident. I had two bad pelvic fractures, two lung surgeries, a broken skull and almost a week coma.
During the time I spent in hospital and in rehabilitation I had a lot of lucid dreams. I “saw”, if I can put this word, some strange things that weren’t visible to anyone but me. So, that was what made me start some serious work. My body begged for attention and proper care in order to recover. However, intense physical exercises were forbidden. The brain demanded to clarify what was happening in the hospital and afterwards and even now, though not so often. At that moment I was close to a friend who did reiki, yoga and meditations. I also went for it. Thanks to her soft guidance I realized many things, not only the hospital ones, but also everyday things when I used to either make a row or go away slamming the door or accusing everyone and everything around me but myself (the victim state that was accompanied by pity for myself together with the desire to shift all the problems onto others while I’m waiting somewhere in the corner for the end results letting it all get destroyed by itself and waiting for somebody to solve my problems).
However, approximately in a year I realized that doing asanas, listening to mantras, meditating and folding my legs in a lotus weren’t my kind of thing. It wasn’t really my thing and I could do nothing about that. I quitted these practices. Then for about a year I did nothing and my body and soul cried for attention, care and exercise. I was tired of going around in circles and I couldn’t get rid of the feeling that I’d stuck in a swamp.
Once I met a friend who casually mentioned Zvezda Gymnastics. She said that this practice was very useful to her. But for some reason I wasn’t convinced by her words at that moment. For half a year I fooled around until my disquiet grew very high. Then I asked my friend about these exercises again and she sent me the link to this wonderful group.
After I joined the Zvezda group, read Maria Guseva’s articles that immediately got hold of me by their clarity, honesty and simplicity and after I read other women’s feedbacks, I finally got enthusiastic to start my acquaintance with Zvezda Gymnastics. It’s been about two months now since I started this practice, on December 3, 2014. That day I drew my first set of 7 cards. Before I only did the basic positions for 2-3 weeks. I got accustomed to it. And my body responded almost immediately! That was the first miracle because considering my previous experience I expected that it would take some time before I had some changes. My body felt light. Gradually, my back was straightening. The pelvic pains diminished. Even the pain and crunching caused by turning the thigh ceased in the first week of exercise.
Of course, in the lower exercises it was difficult to keep balance like for all the beginners. Especially, in the exercise where you have to keep balance on one elbow and one knee. However, gradually I mastered it after I watched Maria’s video several times and read the guidelines for this exercise. At the beginning, my elbows and knees hurt, and even now sometimes they do. There was a week when my elbow skin peeled and cracked. The elbows itched and even bled a little bit. But in a couple of days everything was Ok.
Now I pay attention to my belly. Before I tried to keep it fit, flat and trimmed though I’ve never wanted to have a six pack. After starting Zvezda practice I realized how much I pressed everything inside the belly! And even now, out of habit, everything gets tensed there if I forget to relax it, even when I’m sitting in an armchair or at the computer at work. When I notice it, I try to relax the belly and immediately I feel better.
My figure and posture have improved. I’ve become smoother and softer. The gait is also gradually changing. In particular, I feel it the first hour or two after the exercise. I’ve acquired a kind of cat’s grace. And also I start accepting my body the way it is. Earlier when I read feedbacks about accepting your own body, I thought that it wouldn’t work for me. But now I realized that I have a lot of work to do for accepting my Body! Recently, for the first (!) time I could look at myself naked in the mirror without any embarrassment or shame. And without any unnatural doubt, I felt that I Liked myself, that I am Beautiful the way I am. In a word, I continue practicing and observing )))
As for energy things, my story is even more interesting. The first month of exercise I was overwhelmed with euphoria, lightness, desire to love the whole world and at that moment I truly believed that I could kiss and hug everybody and forget about conflicts. But that was in the first month. The last two weeks this positive and joyful mood has been accompanied by irritation, even on trifles. I get irritated with my dearest, especially my mother and sister (we live together in a house), in a very harsh and rude manner. Then I repent. But I get so furious that I’m scared of it. Before I was known as a calm person, even too calm. I always controlled my reactions. But now I feel something untypical for me. I try to realize and analyze it. I observe it.
Now I want to attend a Zvezda seminar in Moscow. Though I don’t know exactly what I want to gain from it. Still, if there is a desire, I have to make it real. Everything happens for a reason )))